Growing up in this world and within religion I was to taught that I was to have faith, yet I was not taught how to acquire said faith. If I were to question how to have faith, I was told that I just needed to have it. The question that was always with me was "how the hell do I have faith when I don't have it?" How can I find faith when I don't even know what that means. I faked it, I pretended to have faith. I pretended because I was expected to have faith and had no clue as to how to do that.
Throughout my journey in this earth-suit I did not have faith, I did not know how to get faith, and I didn't believe faith was even real. Faith was not taught to me growing up in a neglectful environment. I did not have faith in my parents since they were emotionally absent. I did not have faith in all the adults around me who didn't keep me safe from the environment I was in. I did not have faith in this world, that always seemed to let me down and abandon me whenever I was in a time of need.
I have come to realize on my journey in this world that faith is not something we just have, it is taught to us just the same as everything else within this world. When we grow up in a home with Loving parents who are emotionally available and who come through for us when we need them the most. We learn to have faith in our parents. If we grow up in a home without emotional support or without any support for that matter, we are not a lost cause, we are not hopeless. We can be taught faith, we can learn faith and we can live in faith.
This post is for all of us who are expected to have faith and yet have no idea how to have something we appear to be lacking. I pretended to have faith in Christ since that is what was expected of me by those around me. One day I let go of my pretend faith and gave up all hope. Even though I felt as if I were alone and destined to live out a life of misery, I was being taught faith way before I was even aware of it.
God, the creator and source of all that is and that ever will be, taught me faith when I appeared to have none. God brought people into my life who helped to teach me faith. Christ has been with me every step of the way teaching me time after time that I was never alone, and I could always count on God to provide.
We can see God teaching faith to several characters within the Bible story. When we don't have people around us who will teach us faith, God steps in and takes over. God is the parent to the parentless. God will always provide everything we need at any given moment. Sometimes it may not appear to be what we think we need or want in the moment, but God knows our future and God knows our purest and truest hearts desires even when they are hidden from us.
Anything and I mean literally anything that we think we are lacking, God will provide. How do I know this, how can I be so sure? I have faith and I have faith through the grace of God. God wanted me to have faith and God taught faith to me. God has come through for me time and time again despite any circumstances that appeared. If God wants you to have faith, you will be taught faith and chances are, you more than likely won't even be aware of the fact that you are learning faith until one day you wake up and realize that you do in fact have faith. When you look back and try to discover how this faith appeared in your life, you realize that it was God who provided it to you, just as everything else.
Having faith is wonderful and creates a sense of security and peace. Faith is the unwavering knowledge that you can always count on someone to be there for you no matter what. If you don't feel like you have any faith in anything since you haven't had anyone or anything in your life teach you what faith is, that is not your fault, and it is nothing to be embarrassed about or ashamed about. If you want faith and you don't have it, simply ask for it and you shall receive it. It could happen instantly, but it may also appear to take some time for it to happen, but we can be rest assured with the wisdom that it will be ours.
In truth we lack nothing, in truth we are perfect and whole. Look at any seed and then look at the final result of said seed. Look at all the steps that seed had to take along the way to become the final result. We are seeds, and we already have our full potential and final result with our seed. Since we live in time and are constantly going through growth and change, we seem to acquire all that we need in order to be who we are meant to be. We appear to acquire faith, wisdom, joy, peace, and Love when in reality those are already within our seed waiting to be unlocked.
As with everything, we already have faith because God is what/who God is and we are who God created us to be. If we appear to lack faith now, it is simply due to the fact that it is part of our future expansion, and we will get there when the time is right for us. We can't help but to learn faith from the creator of steadfastness, it is already destined to happen. Love and Peace!